I just got accepted to the first college of my choice! It's official, i'm going to college next year!

God, i'm so happy. It's been such a great day so far and now it's even better. even today my mom and I were debating if I didn't go to the college I wanted, and I was talking about which other choice i'd be willing to go to instead. It's such a relief to know that I won't need to worry anymore

Originally I was really nervous about it, since my SAT scores weren't very consistent and I had no idea how good my ACT scores were like. I was so nervous that my grades wouldn't be good enough either.

But I remember how nervous I was when I went to the first college back in September of last year, and despite it being a run down community college (that reminded me of a giant library) I wasn't really sure if I wanted to go to college or not.

Then in April we decided to go to this college, which seemed really nice but then again it was the first big college i've ever been to. We got a small tour, but never got to look at the art department, sadly. But it seemed rather nice, and the idea of staying there stayed in my head.

The last college I decided to go to (since I wanted to stay in state for awhile) was another one about 15 minutes away from the first I saw. It was a large campus, with a huge art department but it seemed rather...cold. There didn't seem to be any atmosphere about it, just seemed like a steady 'work and work some more' attitude about it.

Then, last week we decided to go back for another tour of the second college. I got to go around and see all the buildings. We then asked out tour guide if we could see the art building and she agreed to take us there (she never saw the art building before and she was curious). We go in, and ALL the walls are covered in murals. Apparently, the senior exam is to make a mural on ANY wall on campus, and it stays up for five years. The art teachers and students seemed so fun and lively, and the theater kids (who share the building) seem friendly too. I really started to hope I got accepted.

But now I have, and i'm happy. All I have to do now is send a message back saying I accept the, well, acception and have to pay some cash and get a physical (fun >.>. Also, i'll have to fill out an application and bio because...i'm going to be living there. Decided I don't want to commute 40 minutes every day, and might as well live there. It may be a tad scary, but i'm looking forward to it.

So yea, good mood ^^ That is all.

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I've been saying that alot recently 0.o

Since my life is relatively boring, I have a filler quiz to fill out.

RAWR.


1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Burnt myself on the stove.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Nothing

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Used to grind my teeth, don't know if i do that anymore

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Rock, Heavy Metal, Disney stuff, alot really

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
8:59 pm Poland/2:59 pm USA

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
I don't know. Ask me later.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Certain people I haven't seen/talked too

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S):
DS, Pearl version (yes, i'm an ass), i-pod, GreeceBear, my hat

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5"2 >.>

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
No

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
only if it's really quiet

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
My...self? 0.o;

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
death

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
blue eyes, dark hair

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
Never

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
neither

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
cheese~

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Buffalo chicken~

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
who really knows, it changes. Mostly dark green, blue or purple

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
*shrugs*

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
Not anymore

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
No

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
don't know

25. FAVORITE CANDY
M&Ms, hershey bar, hershey hugs (<3)

26. FAVORITE WORD?
Shenanigans

27. WHAT WOULD YOUR IDEA OF A PERFECT DAY BE?
Just hanging out with my friends

28. FAVORITE ANIMAL? WHY?
Wolves, they're loyal to each other, powerful, and graceful. Dragons too, just because they're kickass

29. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GAME TO PLAY?
APPLES TO APPLES

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
25

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all." Ok, kill me for a song lyric, but I really like it.

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
Europe. Or Disney World

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Born outside of the US and visted Europe over the summer~

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
I'm too compassionate and caring. That and my personality is rather "all over the map"

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Cathy Rigby.

37. FIRST JOB?
Helped out at a Thrift Shop.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
No

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
Everyone else does

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Nothing

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Yes

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Nothing 8D

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
Yea

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Don't really care. I'm debating whether or not to even attempt to celebrate my 18th this year.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
Dunno.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
An author

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
How they usually almost always want to fuck something.

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Just being able to see my friends.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
I can't recall

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Don't care, hence how it's completely illegible

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Don't care

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Yesss

53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Only when it comes to drawing. Other than that I don't really care

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
No

55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
....no

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
It matters a bit. In my opinion, don't just love someone by their looks and not their personality, but at the same time don't walk around like a zombie looking thing.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I don't. Bad habit but I just hold it in. I don't know how to deal with stress/anger

58. WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS?
Lose. Not that I want to be 1000000 times skinny, I just want to work out a bit. Loosing weight, then re-gaining would be helpful (seeing as that happens to me all the time anyway)

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
A stuffed pig XD

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
i'd say about 30. But I only call two people. (discluding my parents and my house)

62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
Yea

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Of COURSE not, why in the WORLD would I even attempt?

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
POTATOES

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Someone who likes you because you're a good person, someone who won't use you or try to take advantage in you but just love you because you're you

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
I don't have nay nicknames

67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
shape-shifting/flying

68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
WLiiA

69. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Try to show them you mean business without really getting into a fight.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Chocolate

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
No, my laptop's in the room next to mine

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Hang out with Kate

74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
Somewhere cold

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Sure, why not

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Paradise Lost - Symphony X. ALL YOU GUYS SHOULD LISTEN TO THIS SONG/

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
.....milk, I think.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Kate. But that wasn't talking more or less like, asking for directions. The last phone conversation I had was two years ago.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
face, hair

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Draw

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Twilight *braces self for impact*

82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Winter

83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Didn't I already answer this?

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
I did. But now, I don't. Shit happens.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Brown.

86. EYE COLOR?
Blue

87. SHOE SIZE?
7 1/2 or 8

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
McDonalds...although I don't eat there often

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Friendlys, Outback

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Don't eat fish

91. WATCH TV TODAY?
A tad

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Christmas

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
used to play guitar

94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Don't care

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
hugs

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationships

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Don't remember

98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
NO

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
None at the moment

Random Fact #100
I may be helpful to people, and I may always be there to give assistance, but that doesn't give you the right to use me like a toy. I'm a human being too, and despite the fact I may not be good at speaking up when I myself need something, please don't ignore me when I finally am able to speak up for what I want.

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Oh geeze. Halloween. God. Seriously? Alright XD

So Halloween started for me pretty much on Friday, the day before. I decided that, since it's my senior year of high school and officially my last year to be a total ass, decided to dress up in my Halloween costume to school. I was a bat. I made the costume myself, so it's completely original, but anyway...

So I got to school and thought outside was gorgeous (despite it being 7:00 yet being as dark outside as it would midnight) and once I got into the school felt like I was overheating. Since I wear short-sleeved shirts all year (jackets are fine since they don't cling to my arms) and the costume was long sleeved I immediately overheated. I was fine, but it didn't help the fact that I was the only one who dressed up.

But then *KaZuBRE came over dressed up as a mad scientist and we got ~Chia-Pet4 and ~Wolphire to dress up and we all were freaking out in the front lobby together XD

So, pretty much overall was a nice day where I just got to relax and do nothing really important. I did have a environmental science quiz, but that was easy so it doesn't count. Overall, people thought I was a furby and one person thought I was a cow which....doesn't make sense.

So then on Saturday, I threw an epic party and included all my wonderful friends (including me, 8 people). So we ate pizza, played Brawl and MKW and played Apples to Apples which was AMAZING. We then went out trick-or-treating and met up with my other friend's group and we went back to my house to finish up the pizza. Then the rest of us played on the wii again untill they all left.

It really was fun and I enjoyed it ^^ Too bad today I was so mentally exhausted I only had one full meal and was rather cranky (not to mention I couldn't concentrate for the life of me). The only good thing was that I got to go to the new P2P meeting and speak to the new delegates since i'm an alumni.

But yea.....i'm tired.

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I'm sorry that I uploaded that last journal...I just had a really rough night. Starting to sound like a broken record but thank you to everyone who had spoken to me. You're all saints.

But as of now, i'm feeling better, and the only reason i'm upset at any sorts is because I want to re-install Spore Creature Creator to my computer (I have already than deleted it) but now it says it won't let me since the code's been used before. Seriously, this is shit. I just want to install the game again, not install a downloaded and all that fuck >.>

Help.Me.

But anyway i'm going to go take the stupid ACTs tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Other than that...life has been relatively uninteresting. Yepp. I need a life.

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It's hard to know
That the people who you love the most
Who've cared for you and treasured you all of your life
And have done nothing to ever harm you
Now look at you with disapproving eyes
As you disappoint them
And every time they speak of you
Include that it pains them
And when you try to help them
They give no second glances
But merely accept your work and ignore your existence
And to sit in your bed
And think about how selfless they have been
And how selfish you've acted
And now you're at wit's end
That no matter what you do it will be wrong
That you will end up hurting someone
That you love entirely
Because you fuck up everything you do
And having nowhere to go
You decide that the best thing to do is leave them forever
Because you know in the long run it will be for the best
They will never be in pain again.


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